Sometimes it is hard not to ask why....

As I am sitting here at 11:10pm on a Thursday night before our 2nd garage sale begins, clothes damp from sweating, feet sore, back throbbing, eyes burning from being so tired (I know I should go to sleep), physically and mentally tired, it is hard not to covet the families that just get pregnant and have a baby.

What is it like to get pregnant without any assistance, without countless doctor appointments, without your savings being depleted just trying?  What is it like to have a baby by just getting pregnant, carrying it for 9 months while going on with your regular life and then having a baby?

I know that God has a plan for us and will use our situations for something greater than we ever imagine.  I know that no matter how much we have to go through and how hard we have to work, the baby that joins our family will make up for all of it.

I have had some people comment saying "at least you won't have to go through labor", "adopting means you don't have to go through all the aches and pains of carrying a baby".  How do you reply to that?  Other than reminding them that even when I was carrying twins, I enjoyed the journey of pregnancy, I was honored to go through every moment of pregnancy with the boys.  I felt better carrying twins than I normally did.

I have again been reminded while preparing for this sale of many things and had an entire day to reflect on everything.  I am reminded that God has placed very special people in our lives to help us along on this journey.  I am reminded that our way isn't always the best way.  I am reminded that the easiest path isn't for everyone.  Most importantly, I am reminded of one of my favorite scriptures:  Isaiah 40:31 "They that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles.  They shall run and not grow weary, they shall walk and not faint." Teach me Lord to wait.